Curiosity kills the cat. I just learnt a lesson from this saying.
When you wanted to know something, you promised that you will accept it. But when the truth revealed, you wish you didn't want to know the truth. Because you can't handle it.
Quite a similar thing happened to me very recently. But I did not ask for it. I happened to saw something I wish I did not see. And it keeps bothering me until now. It will at least until I know the truth. But do I really wanna know the truth? What if the truth is not what I want to know? Now I wish I didn't saw it. So that I wouldn't be so curious and eager to know about it and end up hurting myself.
But I can't unsee things I saw. And I can't unknow things I knew. The most I can do now is to pretend that it never happen, I never saw anything, and continue living my life as usual.
