#4

Being a teenager (I'm 21 this year but I still consider myself as a teenager) is really confusing. We want to be treated like an adult, but we still act like a child. Sometimes we thought that our decision is mature enough, but the truth is, it's the most childish decision an adult could have made. Sometimes we want to do some things that only children do, or give excuses to make mistakes that we are still young, but then we realised that we are not kids anymore. It's so torturing to be in this phase.

Growing up is a mistake, but we can't run away from that. Time flies, so does age. We get older every second. Some people say "age doesn't matter", but for me, it does. And as a normal person, you're supposed to act like your age. Think like your age. Of course we can still have our young souls, but growing up comes with a package of responsibilities and commitments. There are limits on having fun.

At home, when my mother tells me every single thing that I should to, I'll think of rebelling. Because I'm a big girl and I know what should I do. I don't need someone to remind me all the time, as if I'm still a kid. Asking me to do something that I know I should do makes me don't wanna do it anymore. But when I think again, is that how a grown up should act? I don't want to be treated like a kid, but does my attitude shows that I'm not a kid anymore?

So, what am I? I'm not a girl, not yet a woman. I'm just a 21 year old female human being who's still figuring out her life. Trying to have young soul but mature mind. That's me.